I did this like I do so many things in my life. I jumped right in, both feet first, fully clothed, even my shoes still on, wearing a down parka and jeans.
Now as I look for someone to help me as I struggle to keep my head above water from the constant weight of a 40 hour a week job, my last semester of my Bachelor degree, the guilt of leaving a young child in the care of others and the loneliness, the aching loneliness of being gone from my home and family…..I see that I left my support system behind…I don’t know how much of one that I had, but whatever I had, I keenly feel it’s absence.
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I never really thought much about down the road; what this would all look like in a month, 3 months or a year, I just knew that I had to do it.
Damn this economy and damn this life that a mother can’t figure out how to be a mom and work and make good money.
I find myself at 50, chubby and smart…where do I fit in? I work with great people, but I didn’t bust my ass for a Bachelor of Science in Business Management to sit on a dialer all day long.
I worked so hard to build so much momentum for myself. I know it will pay off, but patience has never been a virtue of mine.
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Hang in there momma. This is a new phase in your life, and you're going to have to navigate it just like you have all your other new adventures. So many of the things you're doing now are just stepping stones for your future. It'll get better, you'll learn things here that will help you later on. You're doing great, don't you worry. Were all so proud of you, you're doing a great thing for yourself and your family.
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